I'm back! I haven't given up on my recent keeping-up-with-this-blog motivation. Just needed some inspiration and actively went looking for it this afternoon.
The last few weeks of our Mexican vacation were awesome. We had a lot of friends (old and new) coming in and out of the house to stay, which meant a lot of socializing and entertaining/cleaning.
Combine that with all the poker I was trying to cram in and I didn't do any more videos. But behind all these excuses, I think the real reason I didn't make any more videos was that I felt like I hit a road block. I started improvising every video, which is fine, but I think I was ready for a new step: using those improvisations as the material I could edit and manipulate into something better-crafted. This step is a goal that takes more time and creativity. Learning poker also takes time and creativity. And since we were in Mexico for me to play, I decided I would put my efforts towards improving my game.
It paid off! I took second for the biggest score I've had to date in poker--- $917! It was exhilarating to have all the guys surrounding the computer to root me on and help me out with the heads up, etc. 1st was $1,300 I think so I was slightly disappointed, but I know I'm improving.
I also made some heavy decisions while in Mexico. I know I can make poker something I'm successful at. I'm capable, if nothing else. But I now know that I can't spend every second of every day playing and talking about all the complex situations you run into in poker. It's a very intricate game. Russell and Jesse and the other poker friends that were down there have no trouble analyzing different spots over and over again, but my brain starts to go numb and at some point, I just crave a creative and physical outlet. It's in my bones. This got me thinking: should I continue pursuing poker if I can't become the best at it? Is it too unstable to provide immediate life happiness? Am I actually going off on a life tangent by trying to play poker, travel AND dance? Should I just stick to dance and get a part time job in some cafe or retail store? I'm 24. When am I gonna be financially stable and get this 'career thing' going??
Then, a big sigh. A smile at the pelicans fighting over a fish down there in the waves. A surprise when a dolphin pops up. Is anyone else seeing this?!? This is silly.
Yes, I'm 24. Yes, I'm trying something different. Yes, I'm broke. But I trust my initial inclinations to make a living out of poker. I have the best teachers around me and I get to see, first hand, why their freedom to travel and work whenever they want appeals to me more than any random part-time job could. I'm just starting, so this is the hard part. I have people who love me, I am seeing the world, I'm going to relax. I promise.
My conclusion: stick with poker until the end of 2013. Get a good idea of it's feasibility. Set better hours for myself for when to play. Go to dance classes throughout the week when in LA. Just do it. Make dance videos my habit, whether they're all improvised or not. Read more. Move more than that. I can do both if I really want both. And I realized, I like both more when I'm doing a little less of each.
Welp, "it feels good to have a plan". (the infamous Jesse phrase)
The last few weeks of our Mexican vacation were awesome. We had a lot of friends (old and new) coming in and out of the house to stay, which meant a lot of socializing and entertaining/cleaning.
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| Poker kids and camera crew at Splash in Rosarito, Mexico |
It paid off! I took second for the biggest score I've had to date in poker--- $917! It was exhilarating to have all the guys surrounding the computer to root me on and help me out with the heads up, etc. 1st was $1,300 I think so I was slightly disappointed, but I know I'm improving.
I also made some heavy decisions while in Mexico. I know I can make poker something I'm successful at. I'm capable, if nothing else. But I now know that I can't spend every second of every day playing and talking about all the complex situations you run into in poker. It's a very intricate game. Russell and Jesse and the other poker friends that were down there have no trouble analyzing different spots over and over again, but my brain starts to go numb and at some point, I just crave a creative and physical outlet. It's in my bones. This got me thinking: should I continue pursuing poker if I can't become the best at it? Is it too unstable to provide immediate life happiness? Am I actually going off on a life tangent by trying to play poker, travel AND dance? Should I just stick to dance and get a part time job in some cafe or retail store? I'm 24. When am I gonna be financially stable and get this 'career thing' going??
Then, a big sigh. A smile at the pelicans fighting over a fish down there in the waves. A surprise when a dolphin pops up. Is anyone else seeing this?!? This is silly.
Yes, I'm 24. Yes, I'm trying something different. Yes, I'm broke. But I trust my initial inclinations to make a living out of poker. I have the best teachers around me and I get to see, first hand, why their freedom to travel and work whenever they want appeals to me more than any random part-time job could. I'm just starting, so this is the hard part. I have people who love me, I am seeing the world, I'm going to relax. I promise.
My conclusion: stick with poker until the end of 2013. Get a good idea of it's feasibility. Set better hours for myself for when to play. Go to dance classes throughout the week when in LA. Just do it. Make dance videos my habit, whether they're all improvised or not. Read more. Move more than that. I can do both if I really want both. And I realized, I like both more when I'm doing a little less of each.
Welp, "it feels good to have a plan". (the infamous Jesse phrase)
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| How you relax even when you don't want to. |
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